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Sunday, April 16th, 2006
9:22 pm	Easter Hi all Well, today is Easter. I woke up late (hurray!) and got to not go to church, which, although I wasn't particularly eager to go, is kind of odd for me as we usually go on holidays. When I asked why my mom said it was because although we could go to a ton of different places (we don't have A church) there would be people who would know her at them and wonder why she wasn't at HER church, even though she doesn't have A church. I guess, being a minister, everyone assumes you have A church and that you go to it. Regularly. Which neither my mom or I really ever do. Anyways, so after I woke up I did my easter egg hunt, which my mom and I still have every year just because we love it. I found them all muahahahahahaha I then watched some movie about Maryl Streep being a violin teacher and bringing the joys of music to underprivelidged children while barely managing to keep her own life together, then being successful and playing with her students at Carnegie Hall. Apparently a true story, and it really made me want to learn the violin. Or, better yet (for me) the cello, which I as of right now have little time for and no funds to start. For dinner, I went to my Dad's. In short, he cooked and we actually all sat around one singular table and ate all together. An easter miracle of the practical variety. Gotta call Peter about a musical whatsit (they want me to call it a 'jam session', but i will have none of that) tomorrow. Also gotta get my summer garage sale money out of the box in the closet at Dad's. hehehehehe cashmonies!!!! This is the end, my only friend, the end Joy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 15th, 2006
9:40 pm	cho FACE hilow small children and various other folkies i haven't posted in a long while, but i really, really don't think anyone cares anymore, not enough to read it, not enough to comment, not enough to eat cho FACE. ah well, i'm bored, procrastinating my homework and it's easter saturday, apparently 'easter eve'. i will probably have to go to church tomorrow. got dang it. my mom is also semi-pissed at me for 'not being considerate of her', yet again. i originally had planned to be with my dad/mary/diane for easter dinner, and go with them to marys family's large gathering, BUT cathie broke her foot and therefore the big dinner isn't happening. after the thanksgiving fiasco my mom had 'discussed' with my dad and drawn the conclusion that if holidays fell on her weekends, he wasn't to invite me along to where ever they were going. apparently he didn't draw the same conclusion. long story short, when she found out they weren't having a big dinner she expected me to go with her to my aunt's in orangeville for their family dinner. however, i didn't realize that this was what was an expectation and interpreted it as an open invitation. while trying to be considerate of her and not mess up her plans, (cuz she really hates when i do that too) i decided i would still tag along for whatever my dad and co. were doing. needless to say, my mom was pissed. muahahahahahahahaha easter rant. i rant, RANT at you ALL. yup. damn i am a stereotype. i do the whole 'oh gee, i haven't posted in forever, golly!' thing at the beginning and continue on to rant about my family issues. ahahahaha BAh i am coming across as emo and i know it but i'm not i swear i'm not, just hyper-ish + small headache = whatever the hell this is:) cho FACE cho MAMA's face i need a glass orb. they're pretty and shiny, but mostly pretty as they have the swirly colours inside. no i'm NOT on drugs. Lamb is hi-larious. no emphasis on hi. summer plans are coming together as well, which is totally worthy of a woot! i may even have extra money. hard to believe, eh? ufaufaufa idol is coming up really quickly. i feel totally unprepared, and worried that i will crap out like last year. what happened to 'no worries, we still have a month and a half'? . . . . sunrise was beautiful. today was amazing. ciao bella/o. Joy Current Mood: bouncy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 29th, 2006
11:54 am	oh MY GOD You Are a Lace Bra! Dreamy, romantic, and ultra-feminine You're a womanly woman who makes guys feel like men Your perfect guy is strong, determined, and handsome With a softer side that only you can draw out What Kind of Bra Are You? dude. *later note: i can't say i would ever describe myself as a "womanly woman", or "ultra-feminine" for that matter. lace is itchy.* INSTRUCTIONS: You've been tagged! 1. Post 5 random things about yourself. 2. At the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this. 1)i am still in my PJs 2)i'ma goin to ITALY/GREECE/AMSTERDAM 3)my eye is itchy 4)i <3 you 5)there is no such thing as bedtime & fuzzy socks shall rule teh new world >i guess that last one wasn't really about me 5)i want to have my own personal library full of books that i love and that have those crazy sliding ladders like in the movies!!! there is no point in listing names, no one comes on anymore! and i am alone in my goatliness. ...BOO You Are Rain You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming. Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you. You are best known for: your touch Your dominant state: changing What Type of Weather Are You? i am RAIN to the MAX i lurv the rain merrick you crazy bastard, how can you not comprehend the concept of EXTRA VIRGINAL TO THE MAX!?!? TO THE MAX!!! Stolen from Hanna: 01. I have kissed someone of the same sex on the lips. 02. I used to see a therapist. 03. I'm the youngest child. <--of blood relatives only, in my immediate family. 04. I am drawn to things associated with sadness. 05. I do not have gauged earrings. 06. I used to wear black eyeliner every day. 07. I am extremely influenced by kindness. 08. I love to write. (i don't write often enough) 09. I cann't live without lipgloss. <-- however lipchap... *i second that* 10. I'm probably emotionally scarred. 11. I lived in DC. 12. I spend money I have. 13. I’ll be in college/university for too long. (avoiding the real world) 14. I hate designer handbags. <--don't particularly like them, but don't hate... 15. I've never had a concussion before. 16. I'm good with confrontation. <--(ish/with certain people) 17. I USED TO love NSYNC <--HATE with a capitol H 18. I have more than a couple horrible memories. 19. I'm not addicted to Degrassi. 20. I've tried writing poetry before. 21. My first kiss was unexpected. <--well, depends on what you consider first i guess 22. I'm not a fan of rap. <--*shudders* spoken word is okay, but i seriously dislike rap. 23. I love taking pictures. 24. I hate girls who are fake. <--heh, i have likely been one at some point 25. I can be mean when I want to. can't we all? 26. When I allow myself to get close to people, I get attached. <--for the most part 27. I am straight. <--so far as i know? 28. I have way too many pairs of shoes. 29. I was into Hot Wheels as a child. 30. I dress how I feel that day. <--i have no choice, as we wear a uniform 31. My room is painted white. 32. I cry very easily. 33. I'm always late. <--not *always* just... a lot...*sigh* 34. I barely ever study for tests. 35. My birthday is my least favorite holiday. 36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser. 37. I am not a morning person. 38. I do not wish I were smarter. 39. I don't believe that it is wrong to be gay. 40. I think that it’s perfectly okay to be gay. <--same (ish) as above, non? 41. Plenty of people really know me. 42. I don't have many bad hair days.<-- *goes into hysterics* why do you think my hair is alwayas up? 43. I sometimes fight with my parents. 44. I am meh about my interests. 45. I have had the chicken pox. 46. I'm a hopeless romantic. <--i can be hopelessly romantic, but i wouldn't call myself a hopeless romantic 47. I feel empty sometimes. 48. I am/was most likely clinically depressed at a point in my life. 49. I am no longer depressed. 50. I am very introverted. <--i can be introverted 51. I don't have a favorite holiday. 52. I can be very insecure. 53. I don't notice it, but I'm told I'm very softspoken. 54. I hate ignorant people. <--although in some ways I probably am one *i agree* 55. I love the color yellow. 56. I love guys that play the guitar. <--it's a sexy talent. A huge hollowed-out chunk of wood and strings on your lap. Oh yeah, turn on. <-- oh Hanna, you crazy kid <3 agreeeement 57. I state the obvious. 58. I'm a happy person. <--generally 59. I have a lot of self-confidence some days. <--really depends on the day 60. I've contemplated suicide. 61. I hate cleaning my room. <-- my room is never dirty 62. I tend to get jealous. 63. I love to play video games sometimes. 64. I loathe John Mayer. 65. I get more upset when I see an animal hurt than a person. 66. I'm a eat beef. <--I AM AN EAT BEEF 67. I've had a crush on a teacher before. <--Hanna Banana *wink wink* your comment here was thoroughly amusing *squee* 68. I am too forgiving. <--how forgiving is too forgiving? 70. I have a bad sense of direction. 71. I've had a boyfriend/girlfriend before. <--oye with the bi polar relationships 72. I've never played a musical instrument for more than 5 years. 73. I can function perfectly well without a girlfriend/boyfriend. <--of course i can! i'm not completely dependant on anyone other than my mother 74. I love kisses on the forehead. <--that i do 75. I love the color blue. <-- ugh... everything i own 76. I don't sew. 77. I am not addicted to drugs. Cigarettes, yes. <-- can you do that? it's like a two-in-one. i'm not addicted to drugs or cigarettes. nasty shit, them. 78. I do not wear contacts. 79. I don't mind when people say they hate Bush just because he is a moron. <--sometimes i am one of them 80. I hate/dislike Bush. <--yes, yes i do 81. I don't take criticism well. 82. Conformity is stupid. <--*shrug* be your own self. if your own self is a conformist, that's okay. anti-conformity can easily become another kind of conformity. 83. Chris Carrabba is one of the sexiest men alive. <-- who? 84. Chris Carrabba should die. 85. I love my family. 86. I don't mind getting shots. 87. I am a perfectionist when it comes to certain things. <-- on my god those bloody graphs and diagrams... 88. I have never wanted to learn to play the drums. 89. I can be too hard on myself, but most the time I'm too easy. <-- bah! stop doing that! i can be too hard on myself. i'm hard on myself a fair percent of the time, but i have high expectations of myself. 90. I'm probably going to have premarital sex. <--i expect so, mostly because i don't really want to settle down till i'm older 91. I LOVE my nose. <-- *dies of laughter* 92. I am not very religious at all. 93. I still act like a little kid. 94. I am ridiculously decisive. 95. I don't believe in a higher power or some form of an afterlife. <-- we'll see, but from where i'm at right now, no. 96. I love my iPod more than I love the music on it. <-- woot cd players!! band spakin new. 97. I don't have problems letting go of people. 98. Jesse Lacey writes some of the most amazing lyrics ever. 99. I love ice cream. 100. I am in love. ...wow, this entry was really uber-jumbled. a cookie to anyone who can figure it out. Current Mood: bouncy, but not high on crack Current Music: naught (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 20th, 2005
8:27 pm	god damn it Ugh Why do I screw everything up? Why does everything I touch/am involved in turn to shit? Why do I start sentences with capitols when I'm feeling stupid and alienated and unforgivably obnoxious? (That was not an attempt at humor, merely an observation) Why do I feel the need to hurt others when I'm feeling hurt? Why do I offend people when I really, really don't mean to? Why do I take everything too far? Why am I so clumsy, with both my feet and with my tongue? Why do I become so irritating that people feel the need to shut me down, which just in turn makes me feel worthless and resentful? Why do I have to ruin other people's fun? Why do I need to repeat myself incessantly? Why do I hurt others with cruel jibes and sharp comments, with the only result being that they get angry and I hate myself? Why do I distance myself to the point where I'm so withdrawn into myself that it's hard [and it hurts] to come back? Why do I feel like no one really understands me? Why do I feel like no one cares? Why do I feel like no one really tries to get to know me? Why do I hide within myself? Why am I so self-conscious? Why do I feel so lost? Why can't I let go? Why do I shrink from attachment but still fear that I will become detached? Why is it so hard for me to trust? Why does comfort make me feel even more alone? I need reflection. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
11:54 pm	the oval-esque potato smush-shape Hello i felt alone and estranged and unposted. so I shall post. posting now. anytime now...*blanks out* screw it, i'll fill this entry with random crap. just like every other entry. shhhh. well, this morning i got up and i had... jeesy creesy (<--steals from eddy izzard) what did i eat? i think i may have been dropped one too many times as an infant. this is going to bother me now. ah hah! success. i had hash bowns of some variety smushed into an oval-esque shape. was late *again* and spent the first half hour of wednesday sessions running around getting myself out of co op all day. seriously... *rant*rod has gone policy happy. not to mention INSANE policy happy. next thing you know he's going to be complaining about the number of detentions the school has. well guess what rod? every time someone's late they have to wait in the HUGE line there is every morning to get a late slip, thereby making them even later and disrupting the class and the educations of everyone else in their class not to mention their own. by the time you get out of the line you're an extra 15-30 minutes late, depending on the day. the first official day of school there was a line going out of the student office and down the hall. what a horrible waste of office time and resources. and then if you're late three times you get detention- how many detentions per day do you think that is???*end rant* had a couple of interesting sessions. i think we actually are going to try to do a converge in SASS this year, likely on a smaller scale. i have to ask Alison about the pictures from the parade. AND i my first voice lesson today after the summer. monotony will soon set in. but huzzah singing fun however more fun in the shower. AND i get to start CELLO after the winter holidays. AND molly and i are going for our riding intro on sunday *is nervous* AND my mother is yelling at me to get to bed and i get so little sleep it's terriblyunhealthyanddeargodyou'resosleepdeprivedalreadyandyou'regoingtogetmonoagaaaaaain.... -Joy Current Mood: potato smush shape. + lunck. Current Music: zilch. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
9:27 pm	coooooookies Hello I have baked. Yes, that's right, baked. One sec, the timer just went. Can't go burning things now--- there we are. So yes. Me. Baking. From scratch. Oh I am proud. I feel very... homemakerish and housewifely. Not that being a homemaker isn't a noble profession or that it doesn't involve strenuous work; nor am I meaning anything in a derogatory sort of way- just that I, one of the clumsiest people possibly on the face of the Earth and least likely to ever become domesticated will not be becoming one anytime soon. Or ever, for that matter. A homemaker that is. Unfortunately, my soft recipe cookies didn't quite end up...well, soft. Not burnt, but a nice golden-brown which is what I always try for and fail at, and this time, when I wanted them soft, they end up golden-brown. I thinks that it's all a wild conspiracy, but it's more likely on of those crazy phenomenons where if you try to do something right, you do it wrong by just the littlest bit, but if you try to do it wrong by just the littlest bit then you do it right. Crazy universe. It's the cosmos conspiring against me as far as I'm concerned. Enough of my inane chatter. -Joy Current Mood: relaxed...and conspiritorial Current Music: Clapton - Unplugged (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
5:45 pm	A knee slappin good time Oi I have absolutely no idea what my subject title has to do with anything at all, especially considering as I just finished watching Girl, Interrupted, which was very... intense? bah. Will find better synonyms later. LATER I SAY. Now I am feeling slightly insane, but that's my movie deal. I get into the movie and then it takes a while for me to get back out. Last night I watched Schindler's List and I kept speaking in a German/Polish accent for half an hour afterwards. After I watched Evelyn it was the same, only Irish. What can I say, I'm like Old Billy. It has, however, come to my attention that the people in the asylums are the only sane ones. It's the rest of the world that's fucked up. It's just that... being that sane? It can drive you nuts. No, I did not see Spanglish. To save the world, rescue just one. And always pardon the criminals. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
8:16 pm	Ahhh.... long time since postage hi this is the part where i say stuff, isn't it. hmm. bah humbug, there's no point in me telling everything that has happened as of late because it will take too long and i have already forgotten most of it. however, today on the subway it totally hit me that the summer is half OVER and i am going to be in grade ELEVEN. yes that's right. you probably think i'm an idiot to just now be realizing this. you would be correct. i dunno, i guess i thought i'd be in grade ten forever. now the question is what to do next... damn, they're going to be all over us now about what we want to do and where we want to go and...such...but, as i know the answer to neither of these questions, i'm slightly stuck. and they'll be pressuring us to apply to universities and oh dear, i feel a headache coming on. bah. i still have plans to run away to Europe for a year before they can force me into an institution... any institution. it was that or join the circus, and as i don't happen to have many acrobatic skills, that option seems to be less appetizing for the moment. backpacking and teen hostels hurrah! and staying with Mike and Dawn in budapest, they owe my mom one:P. however, after that i believe it'll all be financial aid, paper work and hoping beyond many shadows of hope for scholarships. big ones. full ones. unfortunately, i don't think that art schools do that... i don't think they can afford to. neither can i. *sigh* damn it all. on the other foot, and much much closer to this moment in time, i get to start cello in the fall! and karate/jiu jitsu. i shall be one tres busy fish, with all that plus my singing, but i shall be content. if hanna can dance five times a week and still be top girl (or exceedingly close to) in all subjects, then by jove, so can i. hmmm. jove. i don't really remember when or where i picked that one up, dusted it off and dunked it in a bucket, but it's probably one of those things that's been around so long it's presence is as natural as a spicy bean. anywho... i've now become addicted to mentos (no that is not a euphamism for some strange drug) and have an affinity for freecell. seriously. this is what it has come to. i can actually solve almost any game they give me at random. the ones i can't solve i play until i do. *shrugs mercilessly* Kittie and Dan: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! you guys are all sooo old:P.i hope you both had fantabulous times! ~ finished: So Long, and Thanks For All the Fish reading: Mostly Harmless next: Angela's Ashes ~ bum-oley=one of the oddest words i have come across to date. say it with a cheery smile and a spanish accent. lub from joy Current Mood: quirkily odd Current Music: the happy hums of a humming CPU (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 7th, 2005
11:50 pm	stuff... with the stuff... with the other stuff Hi folks (those of you who still read these anyways), How goes everything? IT'S SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woot. and you all have left and/or are leaving me. i mean it! all of you. kittie went to new york, ben went to camp, peter went out east *generic direction*, hanna's going to the yukon... us left-behinds are going to have to form some sort of posse and wander the dark and dangerous streets of downtown toronto. damn straight. *cough* uh... uh... yo?... *cough* yes well. so so. it's been a long while. quite the long while. yes... ... ... RANDOM QUUUUIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ (that i stole from hanna, as always:P) 1 - WHERE DO YOU LIVE? Toronto, Canada 2 - SEX OR ICE CREAM? ice cream, at the moment 3 - WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW? white, with a red maple leaf on the arse 4 - WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW? typing, drinking (milk), and partially watching futurama 5 - WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT TO EAT WITH? mes parents et diane, earlier today 6 - IF YOU WERE A TOY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE? hahaha... i have no clue- possibly GI Joe so i could MURDER barbie 7 - WHERE WOULD YOU WANT TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON? somewhere i hadn't been before (probably europe) 8 - WHAT' S YOUR RING TONE? mozart or bach or summet 9 - WHAT DO YOU THINK A TOBLERONE IS? a very cool chocolate bar that i can't eat because it has almonds in it and it has exceedingly stupid commercials and yes... 10 - WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW? my jimjams 11 - DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? non 12 - WHAT WAS THE BEST ADVICE EVER GIVEN TO YOU? ...i...don't...know...but i'm sure it was probably cliche 13 - DO YOU OWN A VEHICLE? nope, unless you count... nope 14 - WHAT ARE YOUR FUTURE PLANS? ...after school? i've gotten as far as graduate. then europe. then...? anything is possible. 15 - FAVORITE FILM? ahhhhhhhhhh i can't pick 16 - LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA? O_o i think it was star wars? 17 - DO YOU LIKE TO DANCE? depends on the kind of dancing you mean, but if the mood strikes me. MAD DISCO INFERNO DANCING 18 - ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK ANYONE OUT? mhmrhrmrhmhrmhmmrrmmhmhmrmrrr *murmers incoherently* 19 - DO YOU SLEEP NAKED? no, jimjams pour moi 20 - CHRISTMAS OR EASTER? chrimboli i guess 21 - LUST OR LOVE? love 22 - KISSES OR HUGS? both 23 - WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? utter dispair, like you're downing inside yourself. that, or cold. cold and empty inside. numb. unfeeling. one of the worst feelings in the world; and yet one of the kindest. 24 - WORST SOUND? the sound of horrible torture and unbelieveable pain; the sound of ultimate suffering. 25 - WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU DO WHEN YOU WAKE UP? try to go back to sleep 26 - ROLLER COASTER, SCARY OR EXCITING? exciting because it's scary 27 - HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU LET THE PHONE RING BEFORE YOU ANSWER IT? depends on how far i am from it, but generally twice, so i can see who it is 28 - ZODIAC SIGN? capricorn 29 - IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL? pfft. if the glass isn't already half empty, it will be entirely empty later. if it isn't half full, then someone will come along and fill it. 30 - BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE? crikey, i don't know 31 - MILK: WHITE OR CHOCOLATE? white 32 - DAY OR NIGHT? depends. sometimes when it all just blurs together is best. 33 - SUMMER OR WINTER? autumn or spring 34 - CAKE OR PIE? PIE apple pie strawberry rhubarb pie bumbleberry pie cherry pie chocolate pie pumpkin pie all of the above and more 35 - DIAMONDS OR PEARLS? i'm not sure. pearls possibly. 36 - SUNRISE OR SUNSET? either/and/or 37 - HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN A BONE? hairline fracture 38 - DO YOU HATE ANYONE? that family on the home hardware commercial 39 - DO YOU BELIEVE IN FIGHTING? depends, truly depends 40 - WHO DO YOU TURN TO FOR ADVICE? ...everyone 41 - IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SKILL IN LIFE, WHAT WOULD IT BE? i would like to be able to master that whole happiness thing 42 - WHERE ARE YOUR FAVORITE PLACES TO SHOP? *shrug* 43 - WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? an actress:P. the things we dream. O_o the end --------- no one ever realizes how difficult it is to cheer or reassure, or comfort others, when you yourself want to scream, and kick, and cry- yet what you really need is someone to hold and comfort you and tell you that everything is going to be alright. Current Mood: drained Current Music: none (Comment on this)
Monday, April 11th, 2005
9:57 pm	Ponderings Hi I've realized I haven't actually done a serious update in... weeks. So, here you have it, the inner workings of my mind- for today at least. I suppose... well, what I've become more and more conscious of recently is that, in a relationship, any relationship, there is always an imbalance. There has never been and will never be an instance between two people in which they like each other equally. There's always one person who likes or loves or needs the other person more than the other person does them. Call me cynical if you like, I believe I have a point. Romeo and Juliet? Both were hysterically desperate and needy, not to mention oh so very rash. If they had lived, they would've been positively miserable. (Now there's an oxymoron for you- positively miserable) I'll take another example- between friends. Have you ever had a friend whom you knew liked you and thought of you as their best friend when you didn't feel the same way? Or a boyfriend or girlfriend you found to be clingy? Or a friend you knew didn't actually like you, but were just with you as an in-between, waiting until someone better came along? I don't know why I felt the need to say all of this. But if you think about it, it's true. Maybe you can deny it to yourself if you're one of those happy-go-lucky-believe-in-true-love-triumphing kind of people. But not me. I wish it weren't real, I wish we could all love and be loved equally, and I hate that it can't ever be that way. But that's what the goat said to the troll before it was eaten. -Me Current Mood: pondering Current Music: Classical, that's right, classical (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 9th, 2005
10:39 pm	hi all mwahahaha *steals* How Should Your LJ Friends Comment in This Entry? LiveJournal Username How many comments have you left today? A secret must be told to you by: umbrellahat A compliment must be left by: jenn_of_naxen However, a complaint about you should be left by: kittie_chan Some song lyrics should be posted for you to guess, by: baron_cering Also, a memory of you should be posted by: jennifer81 Ten words that bring you to mind must be posted by: the_bizarre_one A haiku (5, 7, 5) should be written about you by: chibi_love An "anonymous" comment should be left by: oxyclean333 Quiz created by Marzi at BlogQuiz.Net Want cash? Click here to earn up to $150/hr taking surveys! Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: commercials (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 24th, 2005
8:41 pm	Merp2 bored...bored...bored i'll do hanna's thingabe 01. Trainspotting 02. Shrek 03. M 04. Dogma 05. Strictly Ballroom 06. The Princess Bride 07. Love Actually(pr0n!!!) 08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring 09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers 10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King 11. Reservoir Dogs 12. Desperado 13. Swordfish 14. Kill Bill Vol. 1 15. Donnie Darko 16. Spirited Away 17. Better Than Sex 18. Sleepy Hollow (hehehe) 19. Pirates of the Caribbean (Johnny... again!) 20. The Eye 21. Requiem for a Dream 22. Dawn of the Dead 23. The Pillow Book 24. The Italian Job 25. Goonies 26. Baseketball 27. The Spice Girls Movie (Spiceworld) (*shivers*) 28. Army of Darkness 29. The Color Purple 30. The Safety of Objects 31. Can't Hardly Wait 32. Mystic Pizza 33. Finding Nemo 34. Monsters Inc. 35. Circle of Friends 36. Mary Poppins 37. The Bourne Identity 38. Forrest Gump (WOOT- shit happens) 39. A Clockwork Orange 40. Kindergarten Cop (VERY unfortunately... I am Ahnald, Govnah of Callyfohnya) 41. On The Line 42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding 43. Final Destination 44. Sorority Boys 45. Urban Legends 46. Cheaper by the Dozen (unfortunately) 47. The Crow 48. The Princess and the Warrior 49. Seabiscuit 50. Hard Core Logo 51. Phantom of the Paradise 52. Zardoz 53. Lost in Translation 54. American Beauty 55. Big Fish (again. want to) 56. Starship Troopers 57. Starship Troopers 2 58. The Lost Boys 59. All About Eve 60. Showgirls 61. Swept Away 62. Star Wars: A New Hope 63. Black Hawk Down 64. Elizabeth 65. The Shawshank Redemption 66. Four Weddings and a Funeral (HUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) 67. The Sound of Music (YAY) 68. Notting Hill (") 69. Scotland, pa 70. Oxygen 71. The Ring 72. Shrunken Heads 73. Legend 74. About a Boy 75. Lilo and Stitch 76. Who Framed Roger Rabbit? 77. Pitch Black 78. Maid in Manhattan 79. Willow 80. The Usual Suspects 81. Naked Tango 82. Labyrinth 83. Fight Club 84. The Dark Crystal 85. The Nightmare Before Christmas 86. Idle Hands 87. From Hell 88. Meet Joe Black 89. The Breakfast Club 90. FAME 91. Moon Child 92. Zatoichi 93. Ichi the Killer 94. Gohatto 95. Velvet Goldmine 96. Bend It Like Beckham 97. Far and Away 98: Raiders of the Lost Ark 99: X-Men (2?) 100: Lethal Weapon 101. Pi 102: The Chosen 103: Amadeus 104. Gummo 105. Sliding Doors 106. Gone With The Wind 107. Wizard of Oz (*cries* again! UNDER A FREAKING ROCK) 108. Back to the Future 109. Haggard 110. Empire Records 111. Zoolander 112. The Bird Cage 113. Girl, Interrupted (again, want to) 114. Better Off Dead 115. Euro Trip 116. Good Will Hunting 117. Never Been Kissed 118. Drive Me Crazy (drove me crazy) 119. Sixteen Candles 120. Pretty in Pink 121. Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen 122. Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone 123. 10 Things I Hate About You 124. Bridget Jones' Diary 125. Top Gun 126. Ferris Bueller's Day Off 127. Vanilla Sky 128. Ocean's Eleven (ocean's twelve i saw) 129. The Boondock Saints 130. Ed Wood 131. Batman 132. Newsies 133. Moulin Rouge (today!) 134. "O" 135. Troop Beverly Hills 136. the matrix 137. west side story 139. the land before time (original) (<333 childhood memories) 140. American History X 141. Amelie 142. Vulgar the clown 143. You've Got Mail 144. Almost Famous 145. The Notebook 146. Terminator 2 147. Sister Act 2 148. Princess Mononoke 149. My Neighbor Totoro 150. Monty Python's Meaning of Life (*cries* under my rock) 151. Laputa: Castle in the Sky 152. Mulholland drive 153. Donnie Brasco 154. True Romance 155. Once Upon a Time in America 156. Stand By Me 157. Fried Green Tomatoes at the Whistle Stop Cafe 158. Beauty and the Beast 159. Ever After 160. Father of the Bride 161. Memento 162. Adaptation 163. Run Lola Run 164. Rainman 165. Steel Magnolias 166. Casper 167. Josie and the Pussycats 168. Say Anything 169. Mad Love 170. L.A. Confidential 171. Citizen Kane 172. Psycho (1960) 173. Bring It On Again (*puke*) 174. Honey 175. Blow 176. A Walk To Remember 177. CAMP 178. How To Deal 179. Radioflyer 180. Nothing But Trouble 181. Igby Goes Down 182. Garden State 183. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind 184. Heathers 185. A Beautiful Mind (want to) 186. Thelma and Louise 187. Clueless (unfortunately) 188. The Royal Tenenbaums (pointless) 189. Less Than Zero 190. The Rules of Attraction (is it not the laws of attraction?) 191. Blue Collar Comedy Tour 192. Wimbeldon 193. Children Of Dune 194. The Grudge 195. Angel Eyes 196. Cube 197. Victor/Victoria 198. Some Like it Hot 199. The Wedding Singer(a billion times) 200. Waking Ned Divine (!!!!Irish!!! avec les naked old men) 201. Time Bandits 202. Hook (love that robin williams good) 203. The War of the Buttons (!!!!more IRISH!!! more NAKED) 204. Benny & Joon (JOHNNY!!!! again:P) Current Mood: rushed Current Music: none (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 18th, 2005
10:35 pm	holy crap Hi folks i just wrote a really long entry and it went back a page and i didn't save it and now it GOOOOONNNNEEEE.... nooooooooooo..... stupid laptop ok, well i'll give you the gist of what i said. been a while since i last upated, so this update will be super long. all's been pretty quiet on lj for the last month or so, there's no where near the level of activity there was back not so very long ago... well, it can't have been very long ago, i can still remember it. Hey Jude... *sways back and forth all on lonesome AND without a lighter* this reminds me... i need a knew cd player. mine keeps skipping. well, it's a few years old, and i believe my dad bought it from a pawn shop in the first place, so it's had a good run. naaa naaa naaa nanananaaa, nanananaaaa hey jude... see, this is why i didn't post before; i would get to the update page and just stare blankly for a few minutes before realising that i had nothing to say. that, or going to the page, being a lazy bum and not updating because it would take too long. bad joy. bad, bad joy. awww, my puppy. who's not really a puppy, and not really mine, but he's still cute. and entirely matted. he's just one big mat, with smaller mats on top of said mats. he needs to be clipped really, but it's still too cold; he'd freeze. awww, he has a goatee... and a very shaggy fringe. GAH!!! see what i mean? i just trail off into random topic land and start talking about nothing at all. i'm irritating myself! alright, from now on my updates shall be topic spacific. i could... debate how major corporations are the paradoxial destroyers and upholders of our economy and society, child labor, (i could actually do two-in-one on those) what and ASSHOLE BUSH is, environmentalism, homelessness, heathcare, the decline of satisfactory competance in present day politicians, WWII and global domination... oh i can think of more. i know i can. you know i can. actually, i could write an essay on any one of those topics. i won't, but i could. damn straight. i'm suddenly quite tired and now have a headache maybe i need glasses. it's quite possible; all of my immediate family have (or in the case of my brother are supposed to have but won't wear them) glasses- i'm the only one who doesn't. gah. whatever... ill get contacts? maybe? it's odd though; apparently i have a stigmatism in one eye and am far-sighted or near-sighted in the other and they balance. crazy me, always having to be the odd one out. and again with the rambling on about whatever happens to pop into my head. i feel easily destracted. i actuaally spent the two wednesday sessions after lunch last normal wednesday writing out my train of thought in my skectchbook. 45 minutes later i had about four and a half pages of my thoughts. i think it should be a psychiatric therepy of some sort. just write whatever comes into your head and then read it. it was an interesting experience really... i felt able to just go on an on and say everything that happened to flash throught my head. anything at all. it was very... freeing, in a sense. i could get everything out in the open and out of my head. anything that was bothering me i could write down and it would seem less signifigant. like a journal, but less obligatory. so yes, i highly recommend it. anyways.. so, all of you get on and update this instant! and then comment on this post! because i'm bored and under-a-rock hermitish. although i have been doing better with that lately; i was out of my pyjamas by... 11:30 this morning. whooo. AND IT'S MARCH BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND YESTERDAY WAS ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woot, have a shamrock. IN MY HEART!!! aye, tis permanently planted. yay, i feel special! and lucky, because i have a shamrock. and i have stolen a leprechaun's hat. or maybe (duh duh duh..) i AM a leprechaun!!! go avatar of leprechaun that i found on google for a computers proj last year...and woot! i'm actually IRISH!!! self-sovereignty!!! never surrender!!! fighting for the freedom of my distant relatives because they're ruled (ojectively) by my other distant relatives. i've fire in me blood alright. i wish i had red hair. that would be awesome. wow, i am tired. all for now, i've bored you for long enough. love joy Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Hey Jude (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 26th, 2005
9:25 pm	hihihihihihihihihi!!!! wow, just got back from lemony snicket's series of unfortunate events! i really liked it! Jenn and i figured the Count Olaf was really Peter, 70-80 years from now, and that Ben was Uncle Monty because he lived alone with hundreds of differents poisonous reptiles. Kittie must be Aunt Josephine, because who else would be that... wait, why is Kittie Josephine again Jenn? anyways, it was highly, highly amusing. we all must get together and rent it sometime, because you know we will pay absolutely no attention to the plot and end up having a blast! then, we could probably do that with any movie. wow, coming off of the hyper cloud 9... *twitch* anywho, this wraps up my day. love joy Current Mood: happy (7 Comments |Comment on this)
4:22 pm	hihihihihi i was bored out of my mind. and now im hyper like two long jumping things. wow, that sounded weird. but i dont care! weeeeeeeeeeeeee i think there may be crack in my frozen yogurt. wait, is crack a downer? i dont rememeber. if it is that just makes it even more astounding. ralph's hat was blown off and is now somewhere under a snowdrift i think i can see it though. poor ralph i hope he isnt cold. he looks kinda like the person in the scream picture. because his eyes and mouth sunk and then fell off. so he looks permanently horrified. ah well. squeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeedom. im done. breathe. love joy Current Mood: hyper (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
5:32 pm	updating time- onwards, and awaaaaaaaay! Hello hello and thrice hi! w00t! wow, it's been a while since i updated, and so much has happened i'm not even going to try to relate all of it to you people. most of whatever has happened you folks know of/were there for. so. anyways. i'll start from friday. NO SCHOOL!!! yes!!! met molly, vicky, galen, jenn, hanna, becca, peter and ben and went bowling at the bowlerama down by kipling. i really suck at bowling. and we played 10 pin- i'd only ever played 5 pin before then. so i was...not so good. but i blame it on being unacustomed to the weight of the bowling ball. :P then becca and hanna left us and we went down to queen. w00t! F/X and many other "scary girly stores" that we dragged ben, peter and galen into (ben, you so chickened)- and i really wish we had forced them to try on dresses. HA. now that would've been entertainment. went all the way over to main st to walk molly's dog, eddie, and peter went crazy drunk at the park. back over to spadina, where we rented Life of Brian (not that we ever finished it... you all suck) and had pizza. oh hanna, you and you're impeccable timing. ben, galen and vicky left at 10:00, jenn and peter left at 12:00 and hanna left at about 12:30 ish. i slept over at molly's, on a matress of pillows, one of which had a freaky ass groove in it. on saturday, molly and i went on another bloor st escapade (our first was on tuesday) and went into both indigo and chapters. bought another book i really didn't need, (<-- it was an awesome book, im glad i bought it) but hey, my money could be spent on worse things- like DRUGS!!! or or or DEMON RUM!!! or or or... ah well, no body ever suspects THE BUTTERFLY... (random simpsons referance yah!) where was i? yes, saturday. i went back to my house and my fantasticly marvelous friend NATALIE was there. :D heh. she's known me since i was born (she's four days older, however we were both due on chrimboli) and our parents were friends before that, so needless to say she's been there for everything. i'm not always sure that's a plus, and i rather wonder why she's still my friend after all that we've been through, but hey. i won't question the ways of that big bearded nomad in the sky. not that i believe in said entity- but should he/she/it exist, and be bearded, i shant question. back to the point. we rented more movies- thirteen (tres heavy) and divine secrets of the ya ya sisterhood, and stayed up talking til 3am. *yawns* sunday... well, i don't know how comfortable i am with writing sunday. so i'll skip to monday. VALENTINE'S!!! chocolate! candy! heart-shaped things! heh. i know it's a Hallmark holiday, but the romantic inside me likes valentine's day. *launches into rendition of "can you feel the love tonight"* and i got a silk rose. from one who shall remain nameless. >_< *is embarassed*. who am i kidding? i <3 st. valentine! *proposes* will you elope with me st valentine? on valentine's day? *st. valentine swoons* yes! yes of course i will! *passionate kiss with centuries old man* *runs away to some foreign country with st. valentine* *sniff* it's so beautiful! even so far as beauxtiful! (beauxstiful- pronounced bee-yook-stif-ful) yes, i am a freak but i'm your freak now an illicit lesbian lover and married to st. valentine a man who is centuries old no, i'm not precisely sure how many but we're in a foreign country so you can't stop us shutupshutupshutup stop talking stupid brain sugar. chocolate. love <33333333333 Current Mood: CHOCOLATE! Current Music: heh... cbc (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 25th, 2005
7:33 pm	Joli Coeur Bonjour mes petits; Good lord, no more french for me. Ok, so. Update time after my adventures to visit the Quebecois. Wow... by the time i have science again... i wont have been to science in six days...anyways. Thursday Thursday after school I went shopping at Fairview mall with Diane. Got Mary's b-day present (yay! coffee lovers) and then went to my Daddy's. Was completely amazed by the renovations done in the basement... holy crap I still don't believe it. Basically crashed out. Friday Muahahahahahahaha no school for meeee! Of course, the one day i was away is the day they have the meeting in the morning, and everyone gets to sleep in late. Absolutely TYPICAL. Ok, so while you all were sleeping, I got on a bus full of pre-teen girls, their parents, and some of their siblings. whoo...hoo. They were... screaming... for most of the 6 hours it took to get to Quebec. oy vey. We stayed in the Chateau Cartier, in Alymer. Pretty nice place actually- not one of those really expensive places that you're afraid to sneeze in, but comfortable. I was quite glad, as I really must be able to sneeze in the places I stay. We unpacked, explored most of the hotel and went off to hockey game #1. They played an A team, (very difficult, considering they're a B) and they lost 2-0. However, just the fact that it was by that little when that team might have creamed them and that they played a good game was enough to console them. Diane won MVP! Back to the hotel where we had dinner at the adjoining bar & grill. Yes, in Quebec it's legal for minors to go into bars. After that we watched A Cinderella Story... yay... it's so not fair that Hilary Duff of all people gets to make out with which ever hot guy happens to be in that one. Saturday Ugh... Wake up at 7:00am for an early game. I mumbled something incoherent and Mary asked me if I wanted to skip this game. I smiled and went back to sleep, to be awakened at 9:00 by the maid. woot. Good job me. Not only that, but she speaks french, so as I get out of bed she's apologizing profusely in fast french. I think I managed to say something along the lines of "No, it's ok..." before she backed away out the door. poo poo. It's ok, I had to get up anyways. Showered, dressed, and danced around to crazy Beatles when she came back again. Fine, fine, so she cleans the room, and Diane and Mary get back. They didn't win, but played another close game. So the rest of the day is ours! Sweet freedom! We... watch tv... and watch tv... and get on the bus and go to Ottawa. Rideau Centre yay! I got some new head phones and an awesome lantern with chinese writing all over it. woot! Then we went to dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe. Awesome!!! I loved the memorabilia- they had a nook full of Beatles stuff! AND A YELLOW SUBMARINE GUITAR!!! and stained glass windows of the Beatles and these crazy dancing dolls. funfunfunfunfunfun! Sunday Got up, packed up, checked out. Last ones on the bus... as usual. Got the very last seats... under the double speakers. Went to game #3. Played another good game, but one goal too many squeaked past our... less experienced... goalie. 2-1 Them. Oh well. The rest of the day is on the bus. Nearly deafened by the speakers and the girls constantly saying "turn it up! we can't hear!" Oy vey. Back to Toronto. Crisis crisis, Jenn had volunteered us to go on Monday and we weren't ready. Crikey. Monday Ortho in the morning. After that everything passed in a blur. Got home... report card... disappointing. Disappointment in myself mostly. Disbelief at on point. Went and slept it off. Today Started off grumpily. By lunch it was getting harder to be depressed. By the end of the day only tiredness remained. We shall see, we shall see. That's all Love me Current Mood: quixotic, whatever that means Current Music: Beatles- Nowhere Man (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 18th, 2005
6:17 pm	AHHHH!!! Sex at 16? Well hello you(s) No doubt the title of my update has caught your attention. It all happened so fast... You see, my mom was watching Gilmore Girls as Jenn was getting ready to leave, and by my own stupidity I mentioned something about what it would be like if my mom had gotten pregnant at 16, like the woman in the show. After the comments about why anyone would have sex at 16, the conversation somehow turned to my getting pergnant at 16. I think my mom's comment was something similar to "Well, if you're going to have a kid at 16, you're gonna have to get busy." Yes, that's right, we're quite liberal in my house. Then, of course, Jenn had to add her two cents about how she hoped it wouldn't be with who she though it might be. Stupid Jenn *shakes fist*. My mom couldn't resist starting to list off all the guys in the circle (those who's names she knows anyways) and through all of this I'm staring in horror at the both of them. But, the piece de resistance- while my mom reeled off her list of, oh, three or four people, Jenn says oh so inconspicuously *cough*______*cough*. AND my mom didn't hear her the first time, so she had to fake cough it TWICE more. Damn you Jenn, you didn't even say the M word instead. No, you just had to go and say it right out loud. Hence why I call you radio Jenn. So now my mom knows. I shall suffer endless teasing I'm sure. Quite honestly, I think this warrents being my named frightening thought du jour- at least until something weirder and/or crazier happens. Love from your freak PS: If forgot to mention this- last night I spent a grand total of 7 1/2 hours doing home work. I didn't sleep until 3am. Not to mention that about half of it I didn't need to do, but I thought it was due today and it wasn't and I thought we had to do the whole thing and we don't and argggg... Current Mood: crazy Current Music: radio... CBC? (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
8:09 pm	A Series of Coincidences Leading to Embarrassment Hello my lovelies *evil grin* So! Today. Well, school, obviously. Cept I had only good classes, classes entailing little to no homework and excluding anything relatively linear-thinkingish. Vocals... crazy singing in the hall doing mostly warm ups (Can you folk in chem hear us? Do we sound utterly insane?) Then after nut break French, which was amusing because Christina couldn't talk and had to make wild gestures to communicate. Art, which was surprisingly ok considering we're doing art history (mostly we did the Metro crossword and passed notes...) but hey, I'll take what I can get, cuz we were watching a movie narrated by this guy with a really monotone voice. Not to mention the DaVinci movie, where they showed several very inaccurate pictures by him (DaVinci) of female sex organs. Hmmm... it was, how you say... PR0N! After lunch twas history... I wrote on Jenn's shoes and we watched "Some Like It Hot", a 20's movie involving two men who play sax and bass joining an all female band and impersinating women. Lastly English, where we watched another movie, about Queen Elizabeth I... soap opera anyone? And then there was Jenn, being radio Jenn as she is on the way to the subway. Did you really have to say what you said? Oy vey. Ok, here's where I have to explain before this next bit so that you will understand the oddness/creepyness of the situations of the upcoming story. There's this guy at UFA (blond hair...several earings...lip ring...I don't know his name) that lately for some odd reason I've been seeing everywhere I go. Yesterday I went to get on the streetcar at Bathurst, and he was there. I ended up sitting across from him. I've seen him at Bathurst before too, which is all fine and good and I've never really taken much notice cept for this week. Anyways, so today Molly and I went to Greenhawk (tack shop) and we had to go to Eglington station. Just as we were coming up the stairs I was telling her about how I've been seeing said guy around a lot the past couple of days and there he was. I was slightly creeped out, and Molly and I concluded that he must be stalking me. Anyways, we catch the bus and go on our merry way. Had a fabulous time on the Avenue, went and got ice cream coffee thingies (kinda like an iced capp but without the cappacino (regular coffee instead)and + ice cream). Needless to say, we were already hyper by the time we got to Eglington. As we came off the bus platform to go down into the subway, we start talking about the dude and how I keep seeing him everywhere and as we walk inside Molly says really loudly "Watch him be at Eglington" - and there he was. At Eglington. Walking about 3ft away from us. As he looks up, we both burst out laughing (laughing as in hysterically) and we walk away as fast as possible. Then as we're on the platform getting onto the subway, he appears again and looks at us as if we're insane (with good reason) and we both duck into the subway car and go to on end. Of course, we're still having spasms of laughter, and we end up trying to calm down and talk about what happened. Unfortunately, I think we may have been a smidge loud, and when we get off at Yonge & Bloor we see he was in the same car as us. Needless to say, Molly and I will be avoiding him at all costs for as long as humanly possible as he probably thinks that we're stalking him. Anyways, that's my little anecdote of the day. I'm done for tonight. Love from your more than slightly embarrassed freak Current Mood: embarrassed Current Music: classical (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 5th, 2005
10:04 pm	Special Wednesday... And How Very Special It Was!!! Hi folks! Ahahahaha! Today was such great fun!!! Montgomery's Inn yay! Kittie's house yay! Special doll yay! Teehehehehe. Ok. So, we went to Montgomery's Inn. Got there at about 10:35(ish) and immediately we were wisked back in time to the 1800's. No running water, no fridge, no stove. Heh. We did all these crazy kitchen jobs, and there was this huge sugar brick that I wanted to steal. We made current scones over an open hearth, and Ben and I had a very small flour fight, and Beau's group put a tick tack in their dough. Hmmm... I can't rember, did anyone ever eat a scone and happen to taste the minty freshness? *ponder* hmmm... anyways. Then this weird guy with an odd flappy thingy on the front of his trouser's (thank god for zippers) took us on this really long tour of the inn and told us all this history. :P Whenever we talked during his tour he would just glare creepily at us until we shut up. Yes. Well. Then we did an... interesting... activity involving what we eat and very old cookbooks, and to top it all off we got a loooooooong slide show. I think by the time the guy started talking about correcting the restoration job on the upstairs hall I was starting to fall asleep. And then it was over, and Kittie, Vicky, Beau and I went to Kittie's house! HAHAHAHA... sooooooo much fun. We spoke of many things... and people... and the liking of people by people... and certain representations of people made by other crazy people. And we watched "love actually" and had an all around good time. I realize this must all sound extremely boring... well, some of the Montgomery's Inn stuff was pretty boring... but in reality it was very much fun. And the guys wouldv'e probably run away had they been there. Anyways. My house next time. *evil grin* Love your freak Current Mood: giggly (5 Comments |Comment on this)